Relaxation is THE New Drug

My husband and I got back from a little getaway yesterday afternoon.  I had been up since 4:00 AM and was beyond tired.  By the time everyone had something to eat, I was done.  I went upstairs to our room at 7:30 PM and didn't wake up until 5:00 AM.  Nine and a half hours of sleep is an unheard of and almost obscene quantity in my world.  It feels amazing!

When I woke up, no one else was awake.  I came downstairs and started reading, which quickly turned into writing.  I turned the TV on, but I'm not sure why, so I turned it back off.  Who needs that noise?  When we were on our little vacation, we didn't watch TV.  We had one in our room and there were TVs in some of the bars, but we weren't paying attention to them.

We talked to each other.  I talked A LOT!  I always do.  Well, when you don't get tons of uninterrupted time with your love, you have a lot to say.  He had a lot to say, too.  We actually didn't stop talking during our three hour drive to the resort.  We kept talking over drinks and dinner that night.  We took a break for sleeping.

Eventually, we started to relax and found that we didn't need to talk quite so much. I spent time reading in their beautiful library.  He took a long morning nap while I swam in the spa pool.  For once, I was the 'active' one, while he took advantage of a dark, quiet room.  

I just didn't want to miss anything.  Our time was limited so I wanted to see the gardens, ride the trolley, go to the casino, eat at the different restaurants, have spa treatments and SWIM.  My husband loves most of those things, but he's not much for swimming.  That's okay.  We're capable of doing things separately and then coming back together later.  It's been ten years.  A little alone time is good.  

So, after sleeping for over nine hours last night, I have a better perspective about why I was so PISSED OFF when we got home.  I was used to being taking care of and totally spoiled.  I got used to it really fast.  Then, when we got home, all I saw was work.  I needed to make dinner, start laundry, take care of the boys and I was SO TIRED.  The boys weren't really listening to me.  My husband fell asleep on the couch and I was like, 'WHY ARE YOU ALL IGNORING ME??'

They weren't.  They were just doing their own things.  It just wasn't the serene family evening I had imagined.  Well, you can't get EVERYTHING you want.  It's just that my expectations weren't met.  I was having a hard time coming down from the high of West Baden, where all of my expectations were met and EXCEEDED.  I needed a fix.  A relaxation fix.  So, instead of being angry for one more second, I went to bed.  It was the right thing to do.